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Safe With Your Own Kind

Watched Narrow Margin. A tense little noir with great one liners that had it all: humor, twists, violence, style, voice, and a little kid in danger. A gravel voice cop escorts a mob boss’s wife to court via train to testify but the mob wants her dead. If I see it on DVD I’ll definitely pick it up.

A lot of times people say to me:

“You hide behind your keyboard and your views, safe with your own kind and your own people.”

I’ve explained myself with the first part of the comment. I am a keyboard warrior. Being autistic, a keyboard is my preferred choice of communication. My weapon and skill.

Now, what is wrong with wanting to be with people who share your view, no matter your view? If you see black and everyone one else sees white, living in that white world is going to be hard on you, no? (no pun intended)

I grew up in a little hick town called Howell in New Jersey – Monmouth County – and it sucked. Today you would call it Trump country. It was full of Aryan, racist views. Narrow minded, stuck up middle class and white trash. Homophobic. I did not share or fit in. I was a freak, a weirdo, and a loser. I got my ass kicked a lot.

Why should I fit in? I mean, I could but who wants to vomit three times a day?

So of course I wanted to leave and find someplace to fit in, to share my views. And I did in Jersey City.

That’s not to say I didn’t learn about other points to view. I learned a lot about hate and prejudice during my childhood. I learned how sad they were. How they lived in fear. How money controlled them. I saw their POV clearly.

I also saw POVs of LGBT, Latinos, Chicanos, Blacks, Africans, Muslims, etc. I spent my life learning POVs since leaving Howell. And I made them my own POV. I’m still learning. I’m a fucking sponge.

So if anyone says that I’m hiding behind my kind’s pov where I feel safe, then yeah. I am. And I do feel safe. As an autistic who has been abused by neuro typical white people through out my life, I do feel safe on my side.
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Still Interesting and Still Inconclusive

More editing on Cities That Eat Islands.

Rearanged our DVDS. Finally made the whole bay in auteur and the second bay will be broken down into genre. saw a lot of titles I don’t think we’ll want anymore. I’ll have to double check with Neen. Should have a good handful to Swap out in the future. Be nice to have things broken down into Slasher, Ghost, and Sci-Fi for when I’m in the mood for certain things.

Origin of Species isn’t going so well. Darwin is not a very good writer. I’ver read MUCH better science writing than this. He states too much and doesn’t engage the reader. Doesn’t take you through the learning process. I’m going to try to at least get a quarter done. If he doesn’t convince me then I’m going to put it to the side.

M got sick in school today so I had to pick her up this afternoon. Explosive diarrhea. Ruined two sets of clothes. Should have a fun time washing those this week end. If they’re salvageable. She’s just fine. Must have caught a germ on her class trip the other day. We’ll keep her home tomorrow just in case.

Watched Suddenly today. Still a great noir. As menacing and subtly sympathetic Sinatra. I still don’t buy him over powering the great Sterling Hayden. Visually, I mean. Yeah, he had to shoot him in the arm to keep him down in the movie. It reminds me of Michael Pare against Willem Defoe in Streets of Fire. Your opponents should be equal in size or at least have your bad guy larger. Unless you’re doing a cartoon like film. Like Batman or something. Hayden was such a bad ass in everything he did.

The argument for guns is still interesting and still inconclusive. Something they don’t do anymore today. I like that in my art. Another reason most current cinema doesn’t interest me.

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